My Playlist for TEACH ME TO FORGET!
Happy Monday I hope you had a great weekend! It’s been a busy one for me. I was finally able to share news about my new book deal with Merit Press! You can read all about the journey to get there here! I love music. Duh, right? But when I set out to write my new book TEACH ME TO FORGET, I wasn’t sure what to listen to or which music really spoke to me. This story’s a bit on the darker side so I had plenty of music to choose from, but it takes a certain song to get me in the mood to write. Just to give you an idea of what I’m talking about, let me tell you a little bit about the book.
Blurb for TMTF:
Ellery’s bought the gun, made arrangements for her funeral, and even picked the day. A Wednesday. Everything has fallen in to place.
Now all she has to do is die.
When her plans go awry and the gun she was going to kill herself with breaks, she does the one thing she has control over–return it and get a new one. After tormenting the crusty customer service associate by trying to return the gun with the wrong receipt, Ellery gets caught by the security guard who also happens to be someone she knows–the annoyingly perfect Colter Sawyer from her English class.
Colter quickly uncovers her secret and is determined to change her mind. After confessing his guilt over his brother’s suicide, he promises not to tell her secret. Ellery tries to fight her attraction to him as the shadows of her past cling tight around her, but when she’s faced with another tragedy, she must decide whether her love for one boy is more important than a lifetime of pain.
Heavy stuff, right? For this playlist, I picked songs that were emotional and had a little pain in them, just like the main character Ellery. There are songs with lots of minor notes (my favorite) and lyrics that spoke to me on a deep level. The list has changed since I wrote the story back in 2012, but I love the additions. Let me know what you think!
Heavy in Your Arms – Florence + The Machine: Ellery and Colter struggle through the book to love each other. She feels a burden to him on more than one occasion and this song beautifully represents that struggle.
Broken Hearted Girl – Misty Boyce: Pretty simple. Ellery’s heart is broken for a lot of reasons. This is a soft song that tells that story.
Mad World – Gary Jules & Michael Andrews: I’ve always loved this one. It’s so haunting and the lyrics have always affected me. Ellery’s world is a bit mad.
You Found Me – The Fray: Once she meets Colter she feels as though someone finally notices her, although she’s not happy about it.
Oblivion – Bastille: This is such a sweet song. I can see Colter singing this to Ellery.
The Lonely – Christina Perri: Ellery is very lonely, and this song’s lyrics are just so perfect for her. “I’m a shell of a girl that I used to know well.” It’s just so beautifully written.
I Should Have Known – Foo Fighters: This could work for either of them, really. It’s a song about regret which they both have painful reminders of constantly.
Breathe Me – Sia: This song. You can just hear the emotion in Sia’s voice and it so perfectly matches Ellery’s state of mind in this story.
Tourniquet – Evanescence: I love a good Evanescence song and this one really represents Ellery’s struggle with what she chose to do and the decisions that come along with that.
Wait – M83: “More Time” is the lyric that is uttered through this song and that’s just what Colter wants for Ellery. It’s such a simple song but it says so much.
How To Save A Life – The Fray: I listened to this song on repeat bawling my eyes out while I wrote this book. We just want Ellery to want to live but how do you do that?
Indifference – Pearl Jam: Ellery wishes she could care about what’s going on in her life but more than upset, she’s indifferent to it. When I discovered this song (and heard it live OMG amazing) I knew it was perfect for TMTF’s playlist.
Comfortably Numb – Pink Floyd: Ellery has a lot of moments where she just wants to be numb to the world. To forget everything that’s happened to her.
Black – Pearl Jam: Such a haunting song. The pain in Eddie Vedder’s voice mirrors that of Colter’s so much.
Untitled – Simple Plan: This is the perfect song for the tragedy that leads to Ellery’s attempted suicide in the beginning.
Trembling Hands – The Temper Trap: One scene in particular comes to mind when I hear this song. A very heated one with consequences that affect both Ellery and Colter.
Asleep – The Smiths: At some point Ellery just wants to sleep and get rid of the pain. Such a sad song.
I Will Follow You Into The Dark – Death Cab For Cutie: There comes a time when you have to choose to join or abandon someone in pain. I think this represents that choice.
Your Guardian Angel – The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: Colter wants nothing more than to protect Ellery and save her, be her guardian angel.
You can find the spotify playlist with all these songs here and if you want to add TEACH ME TO FORGET to your goodreads, you can do that here! What about you? Which songs do you like to write to? By the way, did you catch the awesome playlist for Christina Farley’s BRAZEN? If not, you can check it out here!